Love ft Marriage & Divorce

Just finished Ep15 Season 2 tadi. This episode mostly highlighted pasal Dr Yu Sin yang seems jealous ex-wife dia found someone maybe better than him. This ex-wife which is Pi Young for me memang tahu lah how to play her role really well. Orang boleh cakap, u boleh je endure the pain of being cheated and let it slide or hid it under the rugs then continue life as usual. Tapi, those yang merasa tu actually tahu apa yang dia patut buat. Betullah, time will tell whether decision yang u buat hari ni tu betul atau tak.

Sakit tu lagi perit especially bila both were in love with each other while still being married. Cheated on by the person that u trust the most is painful. Tapi perempuan ni, once move on then that's it. Mampu gelak jela at the end of the day. 

Anyways, pagi tadi Dato Azizul Hasni Awang menang perak acara Keirin Olimpik Tokyo 2020. Next Paris 2023 I'm sure he will get the gold. Sebak sangat tadi after the race he said that his father was sick at the hospital, he had to leave his family since 15 years old, leaving his wife and children at Australia to pursue his golden dreams. Anak2 everyday call tanya bila nak balik.  Inilah pengorbanan yang dia buat untuk Malaysia. Yang bestnya, wartawan just bagi tau satu secret dekat dia that his wife is pregnant no.3! Such a blessings. Alhamdulillah.. Lepasni dah boleh rehat, balik jumpa wife dan anak2. Tumpang bangga dan happy untuk Dato'.

Harini tak de apa sangat just duduk rumah macam biasa. Sunday is not really a fun day. Sambil siapkan report sambil tengok Olimpik. Husband macam biasa, pergi kebun dengan his father. 

My breakfast for today..

Fresh orange + collagen + aloe + kelulut honey

Buah naga 💗

Actually bila i amalkan collagen ni i macam rasa ada improvement on texture kulit i. Seems glowing and smooth haha.. ke i je rasa macam tu.. Rambut pun dah kurang gugur. So far so good. And aloe I akan add like 2 caps dalam breakfast drink i. Aloe ni setahu i untuk lawas. Yea, it works! Jadi perempuan macam ni lah. Always have to take care of yourself. I nak cantik pun untuk suami ya. 😇

Masalahnya bila everytime husband balik kebun akan bawa durian sekali kat rumah ni.. Haih, I memang pemakan durian tegar. So hard to resist! Kalau tak bawa balik ok je takde la nampak depan mata.

Bila ada kebun durian mestila kena tahu kan jenis2 durian yang ada dekat kebun tu. Husband I ni dia jenis tak kisah sangat. Tapi kalau i, memang selalu nak tahu jenis dia. Memang nampak sama tapi tak ye.. 

D99

D99 ni buah dia bulat, memang kalay tengok kenal sebab line tapak dengan pangsa dia tu jelas.

IOI

Kalau nak kenal IOI, buah dia warna hijau tua, duri rapat2. Bila biasa tengok dan compare memang senang je kenal sebenarnya. Isi dia lembut, sedap sangat. Bak kata kawan i, macam mentega 😅

Semalam husband I belikan maid baru. Philip AF. Actually tak intended nak beli pun. Cuma AF dalam rumah ni adik I dah bawa pindah. Haha.. Memang akan cari AF lah even I tak la masak sangat. Sometimes rasa bersalah jugak bila dia keep on spend duit on me. Bukan lah on me.. tapi macam beli barang besar2 let say now if I nak phone ke, dia akan belikan. Just say it. Tapi most of the time i takkan ambil kesempatan la minta benda bukan2. Macam I, most of my expenses I spend on things I like, contoh Herbalife ke, periuk ke, benda shopee lah. 

Haritu we go to hospital ambil ubat my father. Dah habis tu, biasalah dia akan beli coffee. Macam i suka pastries and cakes. So dia akan belikan i cake even dia tak makan pun carrot cake. I jot down kat sini sebab nanti bila i marah i harap i tak lupa kebaikan dia ni.

Carrot cake HUKM

He's on his way from kebun da. So I nak kena masakla ni. Sup daging je harini.. Simple dan senang. Makan dengan bubur. 

Hujan lebat berpetir2 sekarang. Okay lah time to cook! Till then 💋

You gotta love yourself woman!

Hi Dear,

I just completed my vaccination yesterday. 2nd dose at PWTC was so smooth. Sekejap sangat dah settle. This time, I memang tengok when the PIC doing the jab, just to make sure that they do it properly coz banyak dah complaint vaksin angin la, tak suntik etc. Im soo not gonna waste my time on having to face semua tu. Nope, didn't take any pics sebab nak avoid risk of contagious infection if I let others hold my phone or vice versa. Digital cert tu cukup dah bukti dah complete dose kan.

Musim durian dekat pilah just started around past 2-3 weeks. Ade lah jual dekat my friend sikit, etc. I tak excited sangat musim durian ni, entahlah. Maybe sebab dari kecik my family pun ada dusun durian. Always spend time sana when there's durian season. Then after married, my husband bought an orchard also.. which more or less the same je lah. And one more sebab durian ni buat I benci. Biasalah perempuan menggedik andartu blaja kolej private jadi doktor kontrak pastu demand nak permanent post pulak akan hint suka durian la etc. Like I care. Semua benda rasa entitle. Kamonla.

I just came across a quote tau.. 'heartbreak doesn't last long, same goes to love'. U know what I mean? Over time, it heals.. tapi u won't forget that u are hurt, cuma somehow hati u dapat terima, and u akan tahu sebenarnya pemilik hati tu cuma satu, Allah. Sedih bila tahu orang yang kita sayang, percaya tu.. hati dia dekat orang lain. If it was easy to just walk away, I would. Tapi banyak sangat hati yang akan terluka. Especially my parents and my kids. So, I know I can to this too. Memaafkan dan move on, melupakan tidak. 

It would be easy if he just let me go macam tu.. dari pujuk I with his every effort. Made me feel macam sometimes I love him, bila ingat balik I jadi benci. Mengamuk2 untuk dia lepaskan je I (ni memang I wajar kena kecam) but then he said that until I found someone yang boleh jaga I better that dia jaga I, he won't lepaskan I. One day if I found the one, then dia akan buat apa yang I nak. Ok bai.

This morning, I feel like boosting my immune system lepas ambil vaksin. Scared last time masa first dose teruk sangat effect dia for a day. Demam, sakit badan etc but this time I takde rasa apa apa pun. So far so good. Cuma husband ada demam dan sakit badan. But taknak mengaku lol.

Guna juicer jelah mix orange + tomato + herbalife collagen + aloe. Biasalah rasa collagen ni tak sedap rasa nak muntah tapi when mix with fresh orange okay jela tutup mata minum. In my early 30s now, so kena la love myself more. Orang lain hati boleh berubah kan.. Dia lupa kot hati I ni pun boleh je berubah.

My breakfast drink. Oh lupa, ada add a tsp of kelulut honey. One of superfood yang I suka. Confirm natural sebab my sis in law bela belakang rumah dia je 😅

Hello breakfast!

Okaylah hopefully boleh cantik lepas ni wakakakakaa...