Kurang tiga tahun

Tak terlambat lagi rasanya nak ucapkan selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin kepada kamu yang tak sengaja ter come across (whats the word?sorry) blog ngeng ini tanpa sengaja melalui Google or whatsoever la.. Kosong2 kita ya..

It's already been August 2014 but still.... Banyak lagi agenda yang belum dicapai. Aku andaikan tahun ni sebagai tahun mengubah diri dan sikap supaya menjadi wanita yang lebih matang. 2014 tak ada satu pun resolusi yang aku list down
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Masa spring cleaning terjumpa diary aku yang aku hadiahkan kat boyfriend merangkap husband aku sekarang. Yikes! Baca balik apa yang aku tulis, I can conclude that I was so naive back then. Mimpi yang indah2 saja. Hahaha...

We were only 20 years old hehe... Buku penuh angan2. Nak ada anak 3 org lepastu cross sorang sebab rasa banyak. Tak sangka aku pernah macam ni. Seriously nak buang tapi husband tak bagi. Modal gelakkan aku la tu..

My ideal family back then is duduk dirumah yang ada halaman luas, ada 2 kereta one for him, one for moiii, weekends visit parents, and petang weekend minum tea together. Fairytale sangattt...

So now, after 7 years... We were totally different person, however the love is still strong as ever. Ya allah i love him. Tapi resolution aku untuk 2015 takkanla kebudakan macam 7 tahun lepas kan.. Harus realistik sikitlah.

Mission jangka pendek aku which is less than 3 years, but the efforts ke arah itu must be done now now now!

Before i reach the age of 30 by 2017, what i want is to be a better person in every ways, complete my professional cert that will commenced starting next year, try to conceive for second baby, and be healthy.

My long terms goal would be...
Performing hajj with my husband and my daughter before i reach 38, start my own firm before i reach 35, have savings of 12x times household monthly income, keeping our marriage solid and strong ever after.

Hopefully when I reach 35 I won't laugh at myself like what I did now to me the in my 20s. Erghh...!!!
(satu kerja nak bawak diary ni everywhere sbb taknak orang baca!)

Finally, it is not happening!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

My baby girl is almost 9 months old and she gets cheekier each day. Don't even know if I use the right wordings. Haha.. Since my last delivery my period was soooo hanky panky it annoyed me sometimes. NEVER a time she visits me on regular basis as 'she' used to before I got married. Hmmph... After getting married she only visits me once haha.. Yelar, I got pregnant immediately lol.

So... Now the period is not regular. Sometimes once a month, sometimes twice, sometimes only three days and sometimes up to 15 days. It is so confusing especially when u need to do family planning. U know what i mean.

After my first jab for family planning right after I finished my confinement, we did not take any protection at all. I did not continue the next jab because i feel that it did not suit me.

Oh hello we both study biology in school so lets do natural planning haha yeah right now u think u re right la kan.. See later how it goes...

So here comes the moment of truth when I showed simptoms of pregnancy the past few weeks. I feel bloated, always rushed to toilet to pee, my period did not visit me anymore, and u name it! I have it all, babe.

I couldn't take it any longer, bought the rm5.90 pregnancy test kit and......

We are not pregnant. Phewww.. ;)

Hubs says in our family quality should come first. We need to raise our children with full commitment and responsibility. We are now still PJJ and we really could not afford to have another child at this moment. So yeah.. Lets wait for another 3 or 5 years, perhaps? For amni to have little brother and sister, no?

However, Allah s.w.t has the best plan i know, we could only plan..... KUN FAYA KUN
We really are grateful for whatever that comes into our life.