Pregnant Again on our 13th Years of Marriage

Happy new year 2025! How time flies. I don't even remember what I did in 2024. 

17th Nov 2024. The day I found out that I'm pregnant with our third baby. I am at 37 years old, both kids are now independent, doing their own stuff and suddenly.... 2025 will be the year that I will have to roam back to milk and diapers aisle. 

11th weeks now, and I feel like shit. I don't have the energy to do anything. I just try to live everyday. I don't have any appetite for foods, but I know I have to eat for my growing baby. At the same time I still have to go to work. Luckily my morning sickness only happen after maghrib. I would throw up like nobody's business.

Bloated 24/7 is normal now. Salute to mommies who gets pregnant every year to go through all these. I can eat fruits, but I hate it now. I hate filtered water be it at home/ office. I just hate to drink because it taste weird. I hate chicken but I don't have options. I hate seafood and meat, basically I hate everything but I force myself to eat something at least.

I felt sleepy and hungry all the time. I will eat mixed nuts all just because I have to stop my growling stomach. As for my husband, normally we would go for date nights, after the kids were asleep. Now, no more since I don't even have the mood to do anything. Really felt bad for him. Please tell me this will be over soon.

I realized lately anything that I thought, somehow will be materialized. I'm not sure how and why though. I want my mom fried beehoon so badly. My mom lived 4-5 hours away from me hence I know I won't be getting it sooner. I never tell anyone about this craving, and obviously my mom don't have any idea about it. My mom came to my house and guess what? She brought her fried beehoon! I cried thinking that Allah has been so generous to me.

I don't know what happen with this beehoon cravings. One day, my husband brought us to a Thai restaurant. I didn't tell him what I want to eat because I don't have the mood for anything. Deep down I felt like eating fried beehoon that night. Quite disappointed that they do not have it in their menus. Its ok, I ordered Phad That instead. Guess what? The waiter came to me to tell me that the Phad Thai is out of stock, so I had to order something else. I casually tell him that I want to have fried beehoon. Yes! Of course I got my fried beehoon. I'm shooked!

Last 2 weeks I thought, would be good if we can travel to Bali. I didn't plan or say anything to my husband about this, coz it is just a thought. I didn't feel like myself pun to travel due to my pregnancy. One evening after work, my husband ask me to choose any place to go and ask me to plan a short trip at least to go getaway for a few days. He handed me his card and voila! Off we go to Bali the very next day. When this happened, somehow I felt scary. Why Allah has granted my wishes so easily. I would still cry in the car every morning, even when I listened to Zikr. Maybe its the pregnancy hormone right? Even the simplest thing, for instance if I saw a rainbow in the sky while driving, I felt like its a gift from Allah to me and he sees me even though Im just a human, and that made me cry.

Today it happened again, Remember I told that I hate to drink the filtered water? We have someone came over to service our water filter this morning and she accidentally broke the pipe hence we can't use the dispenser until the maintenance guy came later in the evening. My husband was worried that we don't have water to drink in between. He bougth loads and loads of Spritzer water and yeah. Actually, that is the only kind of water that I would drink right now during this first trimester. I think, the stock he bought might last until months. Actually, every morning before work, I would drop by the gas station to buy Spritzer as my drinking water throughout the day and now of course I don't need to already. I am really grateful somehow, even when I didn't say to anyone what I need/ wants, Allah always knew it and he will make it happen. There's always a way.

I don't intend to blurt out everything, some of it I will keep to myself. I jot this so that I will always remember. I can't wait for this baby to arrive. This is a big Rezq that Allah has granted us. Actually it is the doa of  the brother and sister that was being granted by Allah. Alhamdulillah. I don't know how will I manage this, but I know, I can and I will do it somehow. It has been 10 years since I last giving birth, of course I forget things. My husband treat me like I am the first time mom haha.. But pity them coz I dont have the  mood for anything right now, i.e to lepak, to do chores, to cook etc. This too, shall pass insyaallah.

10.43pm, bedroom SR.

Of my Raya 2016 shopping

Salam Ramadhan,

Halfway through puasa, I manage to settle my Raya shopping spree already. Now is the time to stay focus on ibadat and dieting. This year, I decided not to go Jalan tar for raya shopping (hopefully) but dump all the money to boutiques in Bangi instead.

My raya outfit this year is from Leeyanarahman. Been a fan to her work since last year. Not really a fan (coz I only have like 3 pieces of her clothing line), but I know her baju is so comfortable, at least for me. I tag along my two sisters, shopping for the family as well. This year we decide to don peach colour as the raya theme. Manage to grab a very cute baju melayu for my son aged 1 year 1 month old for RM99. As for my daughter, already bought her baju at Vendeur festival day before. See? Either I do all the shopping this week or never do anything at all. I think I'm quite a rule-based person la kot because when I do something, surely it being set earlier and potray-ed everything at the back of my head how I will do it or how it will look like at the end of the day. Momsies are like that, I think. **okey whatever**

Our catch in Bangi

The crowd is bearable, maybe because is is not pay day yet. With two small kids to be dragged along with us, we really have to be strategic hence the earlier the better, the least people even more better. As for this coming weekend, maybe I would do some baking and cleaning instead of going out for shopping. I expect this week will be worst since the $$$ is coming. At 6.00pm with a complementary of trembling legs after few hours hunting for bajus, we settle for buka puasa at Mi Tarik restaurant nearby. The food is so-so lah for my liking. And a lot of seasoning used. I don't think I will ever return to this place. We don't even finished eventhough everyone was quite hungry that time.

Week before that, I purchase my favourite perfume from MYSALE. I have been stalking this site for a very long time but somehow I don't know why I never bought anything from them. Until one day my sister bought 3 perfumes from their site and it ARRIVES PERFECTLY ON TIME. So, I decided to give it a try. My first ever perfume was from Guess haha.. Then only I try Bvlgari and never changed since then. *lies* (I also like dior range and gucci floral as well, lol) My husband always stick to his Moschino and Bvlgari Aqva (or Aqua as I said?) and he smells nyumssyy! Jasmin Noir is a gift from me to my sister back then when I hunt for my hantaran. She teman me shopping, therefore I have to buy something for her lah as a symbol of appreciation. That time I bought Bvlgari Aqva for my husband. The last Bvlgari range I been used is the Bvlgari Paraiba in turquoise colour bottle. So today, this baby arrives and complete my raya shopping for 2016. 

To conclude Mysale, it is way cheaper than retail, even cheaper than my usual sites, Bestbuyworld (but I still love this BBW site the most for it service) Only that youu have to wait until the sale ended, then they will process your delivery. Fret not, still within the delivery period that they have estimated. No trembling legs whatsoever, u can be in your pyjamas and shop! That's why I love online shopping. Believe it or not, I bought diapers and milk for my child also via online! Tesco and Lazada of course.. :)

Berpantang cara aku

Berpantang kali kedua ni aku rasa lebih relaks berbanding kali pertama dulu. Cuma di hospital aku kena sakit perut macam contraction setiap kali aku susukan baby aku. Memang nyeri jugak la rasa masa rahim nak mula mengecut tu sebab kali ni aku tak rasa sakit langsung masa bersalin. So, sakit sikit pun aku rasa macam sakit lah ceritanya..

Kali ni tak ada episiotomi pun. Baby lahir 3.53kg ada jugak luka sikit bawah tu and jahit sikit. 2nd degree tear. Tapi tak sakit pun bila berjalan.. Hari ke 6 nurse check kat rumah dia cakap macam takde jahitan pn.

Kalau dulu aku alami sembelit teruk masa bersalin anak pertama, kali ni aku dah sedia enema in case aku takde urge nak pergi toilet lebih 3 hari. So, 3rd day aku dah boleh membuang macam biasa dengan bantuan enema. Walaupun aku ada phhytonatal dalam set bersalin NR tu masa awal2 ni aku tak makan lagi lah sebab nak make sure anak aku betol2 bebas jaundice. Kalau dah masuk tiga hari masih takde urge aku akan makan lactulose yang kpj bagi. So far so good. Memang sebenarnya aku nak kurangkan kebergantungan pakai enema tu sebab mesti ada side efffect kan kalau setiap kali nak membuang asyik pakai enema. Lepas 2 minggu baru aku start makan phytonatal setiap kali lepas makan malam 2 bijik. Esok pagi sure akan membuang secara natural. Every day without fail. Badan aku pun rasa ringan jer hahaha..

Bab pemakanan pulak aku memang ambik yang berzat lah sebab aku tak reti makan ikan masin. Tak pernah cuba nak makan pun. So mak aku akan masakkan sup ikan merah, masak ikan tenggiri dan seumpamanya. Awal2 aku makan ikan jer.. Limau sunkist makan hari2 sekurang2nya sebijik so that luka cepat baik. Jus sunquick oren aku minum hari-hari letak dalam botol and minum bila dahaga. Air suam memang sentiasa ada sebab breastfeed baby memang selalu dahaga. Kadang-kadang sekali minum dah habis setengah botol.

Berurut start hari ke 10 selama 3 hari. Memang syok lah bila dah lepas berurut. Aku rasa kali ni aku aktif sikit lah masa berpantang. Alhamdulillah anak aku pun tak ada jaundice. Masa cek first time 8.2 lepas tu makin turun 7.8 so tak perlu warded. Cuma continue breastfeed. Aku memang suka lah breastfeed ni sebab berat aku turun dengan jayanya hahahah in fact lagi ringan berbanding sebelum pregnant dulu.

Aku boleh jer mandikan baby aku sendiri etc. Kalau dulu aku bersalin bila nak siapkan baby atas katil aku rasa sakit pinggang tapi kali ni takde pulak. Walaupun orang kata effect pakai epidural akan sakit pinggang. Tapi aku terbalik pulak. Masa tak pakai yang sakit pinggang masa berpantang.

Anak nombor 2 ni pun tak banyak meragam. Senyap je cuma menagis bila nak susu or perut kembung. Bila aku exercise kaki dia, keluar la angin tu lepas tu tidur balik. Very easy baby menyebabkan aku banyakkk sangat masa and aku rasa lamaanya pantang ni. Still berbaki sebulan lagi cuti tapi aku dah boring teramat dah ni. Takkan hari-hari mengadap tv, playstation, internet semua aku dah boring. Rasa macam nak masuk kerja jerrr tapi sapa nak jaga anak aku pulak wakakaka..

Dats it. Walaupun quite senang this time, I'm soooo gonna go to LPPKN untuk perancang  after this.

My Zalora experience

Just yesterday, I received a short and sweet email from Zalora asking my whereabouts since it had been quite some time that I did not purchase anything from them.

Apart from that...

this cute statement just melts my heart away. *quickly browse their website to find anything that I want need*

Unfortunately I don't quite remember anything that I need. Maybe a men's watch for my husband? No? He just bought new watch last week..! Oh god only if I had this email earlier.. Hehe..

Such a beauty.. Maybe I should add this in my wishlist and hopefully by his next birthday there would be some discounts ;) 

So, I end up with SKII set which is this set as my Nutox serum is almost finish...

This set contains Facial Treatment Essence (75ml), SK II clear lotion (30ml) and Facial Treatment Mask for RM 171.75 after discounts. Quite a bargain right..?

Last time I do COD with them but this time I paid online and just wait patiently for my parcel to come. Congratulations to Zalora for the super fast service they provide. This parcel had landed safely on my doorstep this morning. 

Quickly open it. Hehe..  

They also have the Brand Ambassador Program (BAP) for those interested. Anyway, if anyone would want to shop at their web in the near future feel free to use this code IVA1x2yv5 upon check out to enjoy RM25 off your order. Please note that this is valid for first time customer only ok. Just ask me to email you the invitation. (annehalina@gmail.com)

Did I grow up according to plan?

Since childhood, I know we have to live up to my dad's expectation. He would motivate, encourage, assure that the spirit to be successful is always high. I have 5 siblings including myself. I'm the eldest with four younger sister.

My dad is a kampung boy who manage to make it to overseas doing electrical engineering masters and degree. Since he were small he played with mud and climb trees. A real kampung boy I must say. However, I'm not as genius as he wish. Haha.. When I secretly flipped his degree result, my eyes nearly fall off its socket because I hardly see any B's on the paper. He got 3.72 CGPA almost made it to the first class honour during the time. No wonder he can jump to any companies as he wish...

My second sister, I think the only one who inherit his genius trait. She nailed UPSR with 5As, PMR with 8As, made it to MRSM Jasin (previously in MRSM Transkrian) got 10A1 and then took International Baccalaureate in Kolej Mara Banting as preparation for her medical studies in Galway University, Ireland. I think she never sees any B's in her life ever. Now a doctor already..

So, two of us doing Accountancy (me and the fourth sister), the third doing architecture and the youngest still in Form 1 Sekolah Seri Puteri. 

Three of us made it to MRSM (including myself, haha)but I am just average laaa.. Not as outstanding as other students. I think I am the kind of person who is quite stubborn, I hate engineering, the more my dad ask me to do it, the more I'm rebelling not to. Actually I know that I am not up to the standards to do engineering, maybe. Ok lah at least my husband is an engineer. He can kawan with my dad. When they start conversation during meals or anytime when we dine outside, I would go like O.O 

Obviously because I am too stupid to handle hahaha.. No lah ok, I just go with my dreams actually. Doing accounts is not bad at least for me, because it is still a professional by profession. Afterall, I already been qualified as a Chartered Accountant, so it wasn't that bad right? Haha.. If my kids were to pursue accounting, I would straightly ask them to do ACCA instead of degree for it's known worldwide.

Where would I go after this? Do I live up to my dad's expectation? I think it is 50-50 la kot. :p

Edit lah sangat..

Salam.. hehe tengok previous post aku rase nak gelak guling-guling. Hadoi nak bukak online shop tapi gamba kau ya ampun edit sampai juling. Betollah hari ini patut lebih baik dari semalam. Kalau semalam aku rasa gambar aku tangkap tu paling lawa hari ni aku rasa kesian kat aku sebab gambar sangat tak pro. Ok hari ni aku buat project recapture apa yang patut guna kamera yang sepatutnya. Hehehe..

Tangkap gambar barang pun makan tahun lol..

Bawah ni hasil bidikan (ceh) jurugambar amatur iaitu aku la. Haha.. aku rase cantik kot. Kau rase? Tapi cantik la dari semalam hehe

Susah jugak nak jual barang online. Hari ni je aku dah beli 2 jenis barang. BELI ok. Tolonglah. Jauh menyimpang dah ni woii... Dah esok tutup sebelah mata. Fokus apa yang patut. 

Hari ni aku happy finally dapat tengok gigi anak aku dah nampak bayang2 nak keluar. Patut la meragam tak hengat.. Macam belangkas dah asyik nak melekat dengan aku je. Pasal gigi pun excited. Ke cemana? Ok bai!

Merajuk!

Kereta broke down hari ni sebab habis bateri. Pakai bateri free maintenance memang kena redha jelah kalau tiba-tiba enjin tak boleh hidup. Abah ada meeting pulak sampai malam. Husband pun ada kursus berapa hari kat Bangi so tak tidur rumah. Huh! Nak ikot Bangi dengan Seri Kembangan sekangkang ayam je. Tapi dah aku yang insist tak bagi dia balik konon tak nak menyusahkan so terima jelah nasib diri. Huhuhu..

Nasib ofis dekat je dari rumah. So boleh lah gagahkan diri berjalan slow-slow. Tapi takot jugak nak lintas jalan sebab kereta semua laju-laju macam tak de brek je. Plus, indon je yang jalan kaki -_-.. Takotnye kalau kene ragut. Sepanjang jalan baca ayat kursi tak berhenti. Huhu..

Sampai rumah temengah-mengah. Maklumlah, jalan laju (tak jalan slow okeh) takot kene ragut whatsoever. Mak buyong nak masuk 7 bulan pulak tu. Memang nasib lah.. Takpe, exercise sikit-sikit harap-harap mudah bersalin nanti. Amin.. Lalu pulak depan nurseri. Eh, saje nak bagi aku survey ke ape ni. Siap boleh sembang-sembang dengan owner nye. Peramah dan baik untuk 1st impression. Okeylah, kalau nak drop baby sini lepas die lahir nanti. 

Bukak kunci rumah terus rasa kepala berpinar macam nak pitam. Lepastu macam nak nanges sebab fikir kesiannya aku ni mengandung tak de sape tolong. Sedehnyeeee!!!! Husband dah dekat pon takde jugak!!! Ah mainan syaitonnnn... Saje je kan nak buat aku marah husband. Padahal aku yang tak bagi dia balik. 

Abah balik ofis terus ajak aku keluar amek kereta. Pakai jumper lah kan.. Baru enjin boleh hidup. So, drop kereta kat rumah lepastu pegi makan. Lapa nye.. maklumlah mood nak masak pon tak de sebab hmmmm... Ke aku je macam ni? Pape jelah..

Then husband berapa kali call and mesej tanya pasal kereta. Bukan tanya pasal aku ke ape -_-. Ah mainan syaiton lagi!! Jawab jelah okey kan. Semua dah setel. Esok baru abah tolong tukarkan bateri. Otw balik rumah, husband mesej lagi cakap tengah kareoke kat hotel sebab free. WTF??? Arghh!! Tetibe rase sakit hati malas nak jawab. Ke aku je macam ni???? Andaila ni sebab hormon, so aku tak leh nak buat ape la. Tapi masa dan saat ni memang nak nanges dulu sebelum tido. Ok bye!