You gotta love yourself woman!

Hi Dear,

I just completed my vaccination yesterday. 2nd dose at PWTC was so smooth. Sekejap sangat dah settle. This time, I memang tengok when the PIC doing the jab, just to make sure that they do it properly coz banyak dah complaint vaksin angin la, tak suntik etc. Im soo not gonna waste my time on having to face semua tu. Nope, didn't take any pics sebab nak avoid risk of contagious infection if I let others hold my phone or vice versa. Digital cert tu cukup dah bukti dah complete dose kan.

Musim durian dekat pilah just started around past 2-3 weeks. Ade lah jual dekat my friend sikit, etc. I tak excited sangat musim durian ni, entahlah. Maybe sebab dari kecik my family pun ada dusun durian. Always spend time sana when there's durian season. Then after married, my husband bought an orchard also.. which more or less the same je lah. And one more sebab durian ni buat I benci. Biasalah perempuan menggedik andartu blaja kolej private jadi doktor kontrak pastu demand nak permanent post pulak akan hint suka durian la etc. Like I care. Semua benda rasa entitle. Kamonla.

I just came across a quote tau.. 'heartbreak doesn't last long, same goes to love'. U know what I mean? Over time, it heals.. tapi u won't forget that u are hurt, cuma somehow hati u dapat terima, and u akan tahu sebenarnya pemilik hati tu cuma satu, Allah. Sedih bila tahu orang yang kita sayang, percaya tu.. hati dia dekat orang lain. If it was easy to just walk away, I would. Tapi banyak sangat hati yang akan terluka. Especially my parents and my kids. So, I know I can to this too. Memaafkan dan move on, melupakan tidak. 

It would be easy if he just let me go macam tu.. dari pujuk I with his every effort. Made me feel macam sometimes I love him, bila ingat balik I jadi benci. Mengamuk2 untuk dia lepaskan je I (ni memang I wajar kena kecam) but then he said that until I found someone yang boleh jaga I better that dia jaga I, he won't lepaskan I. One day if I found the one, then dia akan buat apa yang I nak. Ok bai.

This morning, I feel like boosting my immune system lepas ambil vaksin. Scared last time masa first dose teruk sangat effect dia for a day. Demam, sakit badan etc but this time I takde rasa apa apa pun. So far so good. Cuma husband ada demam dan sakit badan. But taknak mengaku lol.

Guna juicer jelah mix orange + tomato + herbalife collagen + aloe. Biasalah rasa collagen ni tak sedap rasa nak muntah tapi when mix with fresh orange okay jela tutup mata minum. In my early 30s now, so kena la love myself more. Orang lain hati boleh berubah kan.. Dia lupa kot hati I ni pun boleh je berubah.

My breakfast drink. Oh lupa, ada add a tsp of kelulut honey. One of superfood yang I suka. Confirm natural sebab my sis in law bela belakang rumah dia je 😅

Hello breakfast!

Okaylah hopefully boleh cantik lepas ni wakakakakaa...

Sundae

Been so long since my last entry. Last week I ada cakap nak buat few things but I hanya mampu merancang.. Allah yang menentukan. I had my menses so I tak dapat buat la puasa straight seminggu 😑 I dapat few days jela but its ok. Effort is what matters kan.

16 days till Ramadhan. I dah dapat satu shake recipe using c&c which memang sedap. I think for Ramadhan, I akan all out jelah diet kan. Ada around sebulan setengah lagi so.. sempat sangat nak shed few more kgs. Since I first started my weight loss journey on early Feb'21, I have shed a total of almost 10kgs of weight. Insyaallah if I keep going doing things that I have learned from the support group, I'll be alright.

Last week jugak, my husband passed his assessment.. which die takut sangat tu. Because his superior and few of his colleague pun ada yang have to repeat the assessment again. But he did it the first time. I genuinely happy for him. 

His birthday is coming.. I had few activities planned already. So I hope all went as plan lah. I still follow diet, I would not say it is diet lah.. not strict coz u still have to stuff yourself with food. Cuma I dah belajar makan dengan portion yang betul, makan benda yang betul.. without having to suffer from starvation.

Chicken marinate w yogurt, pepper, salt.. with veges dipped with greek yogurt

Bekal I the other day.. masa dekat office. Yep, I actually dah mula rasa selesa makan macam ni. 

Weekend jugak I met my fren from uni.. we brought the kids to KL Bird Park. They had fun! Not our first time pun datang sini but this time I baru perasan ada hornbill. Amazed jap tengok. Super duper cantik.

Later on, we went off to kedai bunga favourite i. Sampai my daughter cakap mama kalau masuk kedai bunga mesti lama sebab tak tau nak pilih yang mana. Semua cantik2. 

Choice for the week

I ni normally bila masuk kedai akan terus nampak benda yang I nak. Means I dah grab this orange roses. Lepastu melilau lagi cari mana tahu nak tukar... then orange tadi letak balik. Somehow, after a while I mesti akan ambil balik orange tu semula sebab selalunya I akan patah balik dekat first choice I. I tak puas hati if tak pergi cari bunga lain tu yang jadi lama tu. Sedangkan if terus ambil je n bayar bunga first choice I tu, dah setel lama dah. Masalah orang perempuan kan.

That sum up last week punya cerita. Oh ya.. Neelofa dah kahwin semalam! I'm so so happy for her. Semoga perkahwinannya diberkati dan dilimpahkan rahmat oleh Allah swt. 

Husband I nak balik Khamis ni. So today jela last chance I nak kemas rumah before dia balik. Weekdays I kerja, memang tak lah nak kemas rumah teruk2. Till then, bye.

I miss you

Lama tak update. My uncle passed away last week... 08.03.2021.. almost 09.03.2021 sebab dah dekat midnight.

Alfatihah to him..

Rush back to the north. Before that pick my daughter from school around 10am.. Journey took around 4 hours, we manage to arrive sebelum kebumi. I drove all the way there, since my husband is not around. Letih sangat. Planned to follow meal plan closely last week, tapi Allah knows better. Bila balik kampung, of course diet I ke laut lah. Sebab masakan my mom is something that I cannot resist. Good food, good companies. Lama sangat tak balik kampung sebab pkp. So this time kita balik to gather with the rest of the family.

My desert mist diffuser has arrived...

In love

I letak dalam bedroom, diffuse at night, sometimes in the morning, after my workout. Rasa tenang je.. As usual weekends I akan pergi cycling. Semua barang I sampai office when I'm not around that 2 days. Malu jugak macam asyik shopping je keje I hahaha.. CCTV, helmet basikal, lampu basikal, loceng basikal emgeee..

My baby

Serene

I balik rumah around 10am.. Pre work out I had my F1 shake. But I think I rindu my Choc Dutch shake lah. Next time I nak order choc one.. I cooked nasi lemak for the kids. They said sedap ya. 😋 Alhamdulillah, I manage to control myself from eating full plate of nasi lemak.

I had parpu telur healthy as per MP. Taste quite good, despite it is consider as healthy food.

Parpu telur healthy

Then around 4ish pm.. snaking time I had banana with peanut butter.  Also had ningxia sachet that I got from YL. Basically it has high antioxidant which is good untuk awet muda.

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Petang ni I ada class with Sunway. Concurrently I update blog jugak sebab ni je masa I ada to update today haha.. 

I selalunya text my husband on random things macam ni.. Jawapan dia pun selalunya 😎😵

I syak kalau husband I kerja dekat ni.. confirm I lagi kurus lah hahahah...lol  joking!

I miss him.. tapi tulah, kena cari benda lain to divert my mind from thinking too much on that. Story of PJJ couple. Macam ni lah. Really hope I akan kuat paddling this boat alone, sometimes. Huhu..

Love always 💝

What's your number

As I mention previously, the month of March should be the month of diet for me. Failed until 3rd March, we shall see today if I failed again, I will update tomorrow.

Normally from breakfast until petang ok je, still makan makanan yang good for the body. Tapi, dinner susah sikit for me sebab bila order food for my kids, automatically I pun jadi lapar dan makan makanan berat2.. Ah nangis! 😭

Today, I wfh. Tapi I hantar the kids to school.. so I can focus more lah. Selalunya tak hantar pun if I wfh walaupun fees dah bayar full. Sometimes sebulan tak sampai seminggu pun diorang dekat school especially when my husband is in town.

Lunch I just grab my F1, mixed with low fat milk, chia seeds and madu kelulut. I just madly in love with superfoods. I hope they work wonders. Long term boleh nampak lah effect dia.

Day before and yesteday, here's my lunch.. *drumrolls*

Wholemeal bread with tomatoes, prawn n cheese 💓

Lunch ikut MP... Pizza ape tah but quite nice and kenyang

Bread to my own recipe lah. Of coz bread beli yg dah siap.. I cari yang low GI. Sedap je makan macam tu and kenyang coz I have fruits and salad summore.

Bottom one is pizza recipe from my coach.. Not really pizza please. Ni pizza sihat je tau..

Breakfast alhamdulillah masih elak lagi la makan nasi lemak ke, laksam (my fav!) kuih muih semua sebab I cuma consume F1+chia seeds+soymilk/ milk + black seed + madu kelulut jer. So far I rasa sihat with my choice.

This month I target nak lose 5kgs of berat. Insyaallah I have to really be discipline in terms of food intake, at the same time I have to exercise jugak kan. Sekarang ni weekend normally I akan pergi cycling alone while the kids still asleep. Fret not, adik I ada je kat rumah. Takde lah tinggal the kids without supervision.

Like I said just now, dinner I memang ke jurang mariana huhuhu.. I had mcd maigod! and yesterday I had nasi arab!!! Nangis!

So sedap yet so sinful.. This portion share 3 orang with my 2 kids

Balik rumah tengok jiran I bagi pulut retis lak letak kat motor 😭

Susah I nak elak makan bila dengan orang lain. Bila masak for the kids, I pun cam terliur2 end up I makan paling banyak. Uwaaa!!!

I'm happy with my number today. Kalau dapat turun 6kgs better sangat dah. It's hard, but with proper guidance and perseverance nothing can defeat u. I think it is possible la sebab last month I berjaya je turun 2.6kg even though I memang diet macam tak diet je and a lotttt of cheating hahahahahha.. makan mcd, pizza siap!

Still early of the month, really do hope that I menang this time. Like seriously. Let's just treat this as my journal ok.

Kereta I kena calar.. this morning baru perasan so I end up beli cctv kt shopee.. huhu.. pastuh beli lagi touch up paint, helmet basikal dengan sofa cover uhuk!

Ade la hikmah even I pissed off sangat pagi tadi. Now I dah cool down a bit. I memang harap orang yang buat tu hidup die takkan tenang and banyak masalah sebab dah menyusahkan orang lain. Kamonla, kereta bukan murah tau. Senang2 je nak calarkan sedap mak nenek kau. Sekarang kau tengah aniaya orang. Tunggu jela balasan kau nanti. Memang tak lah nak doakan yang baik2 hahaha..

Gile bhai negative vibe dari pagi. I tension gile da la ade webinar hari ni.. tak fokus sangat sebab geram punya pasal. I really hate to start my day dengan negative vibe. Tapi nak buat macam mana benda dah jadi.

What's my number? Number I end with 6 today. 😙 So yeah, lets target 6kg this month to round up that figure, no?

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