Pregnant Again on our 13th Years of Marriage

Happy new year 2025! How time flies. I don't even remember what I did in 2024. 

17th Nov 2024. The day I found out that I'm pregnant with our third baby. I am at 37 years old, both kids are now independent, doing their own stuff and suddenly.... 2025 will be the year that I will have to roam back to milk and diapers aisle. 

11th weeks now, and I feel like shit. I don't have the energy to do anything. I just try to live everyday. I don't have any appetite for foods, but I know I have to eat for my growing baby. At the same time I still have to go to work. Luckily my morning sickness only happen after maghrib. I would throw up like nobody's business.

Bloated 24/7 is normal now. Salute to mommies who gets pregnant every year to go through all these. I can eat fruits, but I hate it now. I hate filtered water be it at home/ office. I just hate to drink because it taste weird. I hate chicken but I don't have options. I hate seafood and meat, basically I hate everything but I force myself to eat something at least.

I felt sleepy and hungry all the time. I will eat mixed nuts all just because I have to stop my growling stomach. As for my husband, normally we would go for date nights, after the kids were asleep. Now, no more since I don't even have the mood to do anything. Really felt bad for him. Please tell me this will be over soon.

I realized lately anything that I thought, somehow will be materialized. I'm not sure how and why though. I want my mom fried beehoon so badly. My mom lived 4-5 hours away from me hence I know I won't be getting it sooner. I never tell anyone about this craving, and obviously my mom don't have any idea about it. My mom came to my house and guess what? She brought her fried beehoon! I cried thinking that Allah has been so generous to me.

I don't know what happen with this beehoon cravings. One day, my husband brought us to a Thai restaurant. I didn't tell him what I want to eat because I don't have the mood for anything. Deep down I felt like eating fried beehoon that night. Quite disappointed that they do not have it in their menus. Its ok, I ordered Phad That instead. Guess what? The waiter came to me to tell me that the Phad Thai is out of stock, so I had to order something else. I casually tell him that I want to have fried beehoon. Yes! Of course I got my fried beehoon. I'm shooked!

Last 2 weeks I thought, would be good if we can travel to Bali. I didn't plan or say anything to my husband about this, coz it is just a thought. I didn't feel like myself pun to travel due to my pregnancy. One evening after work, my husband ask me to choose any place to go and ask me to plan a short trip at least to go getaway for a few days. He handed me his card and voila! Off we go to Bali the very next day. When this happened, somehow I felt scary. Why Allah has granted my wishes so easily. I would still cry in the car every morning, even when I listened to Zikr. Maybe its the pregnancy hormone right? Even the simplest thing, for instance if I saw a rainbow in the sky while driving, I felt like its a gift from Allah to me and he sees me even though Im just a human, and that made me cry.

Today it happened again, Remember I told that I hate to drink the filtered water? We have someone came over to service our water filter this morning and she accidentally broke the pipe hence we can't use the dispenser until the maintenance guy came later in the evening. My husband was worried that we don't have water to drink in between. He bougth loads and loads of Spritzer water and yeah. Actually, that is the only kind of water that I would drink right now during this first trimester. I think, the stock he bought might last until months. Actually, every morning before work, I would drop by the gas station to buy Spritzer as my drinking water throughout the day and now of course I don't need to already. I am really grateful somehow, even when I didn't say to anyone what I need/ wants, Allah always knew it and he will make it happen. There's always a way.

I don't intend to blurt out everything, some of it I will keep to myself. I jot this so that I will always remember. I can't wait for this baby to arrive. This is a big Rezq that Allah has granted us. Actually it is the doa of  the brother and sister that was being granted by Allah. Alhamdulillah. I don't know how will I manage this, but I know, I can and I will do it somehow. It has been 10 years since I last giving birth, of course I forget things. My husband treat me like I am the first time mom haha.. But pity them coz I dont have the  mood for anything right now, i.e to lepak, to do chores, to cook etc. This too, shall pass insyaallah.

10.43pm, bedroom SR.

Snippet of the past few weeks

Hey there.. assalamualaikum.

As usual, when I write on this space, my husband already flew off for work. Exam in few days, tapi past few weeks I keep on berjimba je. How la.

Just to recap what happen during the past two weeks that my husband was around. We went for unplanned road trip to Pahang with the kids. Initially I nak pergi bawa diorang ke Kuala Gandah je. Manage to meet few elephants tapi smol2 one je. Suppose ada aktiviti mandikan gajah etc but sebab air sungai naik so cancel jela. Sebab suam2 kuku je experience tu, we decided to naik sikit head to Kuantan terus. Actually after Kuala Gandah, we stayed in a hotel at Temerloh. Had ikan patin etc then ingat nak cari makan dekat Kuantan. Sampai je Teluk Cempedak terus rasa amazednya ada Starbucks, Mcd, KFC, everything dekat sana and tempat tu so cantik. We end up terus booking a night stayed in Kuantan. 

My world. Captured with Ip13

Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary

We were lucky to meet this 5 month baby elephant

Teluk Cempedak view yang buat we decide to stay for the night

Hello pinky beach

We had lunch at Restoran Mabiq. Ramai orang but quite efficient lah eventhough kena beratur juga nak masuk pun. We arrive on 12.30pm maybe orang baru nak ramai. Food taste good. I had pais ikan, eventhough i don't know what it is, turn out dia ikan patin tempoyak juga. I had it already dekat Temerloh and I had enough kot. Hari2 makan tempoyak pitamm..

We were lucky to secure a room eventhough it weekends. Masa lunch i scroll booking.com and luckily found this resort. Memang cantik. We ride ATV [RM50 for 30mins], ada pool, private beach, complementary breakfast semua, I had no complaint. Definitely I will come back again. There's little pub and restaurant dekat resort ni. We jalan pantai at night, then ada fireworks show, dekat beach. Memang lucky lah sebab kitorang tak tau pun ada benda ni. Dengan lagu2 best feeling sangat la kan. Maybe the ambience buat rasa best kot.

I cuti the whole week sebab annual leave I banyak lagi nak clear. Hehe.. Then balik KL jelah after Kuantan. Esoknya pergi swab test dekat Prince Court coz my husband nak work dah. Sebab alang2 keluar, we shoot to Genting Highlands pulak. Memang trip Pahang sangat la kalini. Tak naik atas. Just jalan dekat GHPO je. Husband alhamdulillah negative, clear nk pergi work.

We had desert dekat Godiva, husband I memang tau perangai I suka desert. Kalau I hilang tu either hilang dalam kedai kek atau kedai kopi. 😅 Both kids inherit trait I yang suka desert tu. Habislah. Manage to grab few handbags kat atas tu. I rasa murah kali ni maybe sebab Black Friday?? atau I memang lucky haha.. Perempuan atas ni dapat coklat dia dah happy dah. 

Owh before that! I ada trip with my family dekat Ipoh masa husband I off to work. Yelah nak tak nak we need to live je dalam covid ni kan. What we can do is try as much as we can to follow SOP. Jangan bersalam, jaga jarak, sanitise always, pakai mask. If dah kena what to do. But alhamdulillah, until now none of our family member get infected by covid. Future, we never know. Semua family members both sides dah vaccinated unless kids below 11 years old macam anak i memang tak lah. Hope Allah protects them always.

Both my parents, my nenek join this trip. Regardless la kena pakai wheelchair ke ape we all tolak je. My sisters, 4 out of 5 ada. In fact semua sibling I pun girls je takde boys haha.. If orang cakap I lemah lembut tu sebab belum pernah tengok I mengamuk jela kot. Ada satu story kelakar pasal nenek I but I keep it to myself jela hahaha.. I just nak create memories while they are still around. I pun tak tahu sampai bila I akan ada dekat sini. We never know. 

Looking back at our picktures, deep down I'm a proud sister and I nak congratulate my parents for raising us so well. My little sister doing specialist in opthalmologist, a med officer soon to be specialist dah. Another one is an engineer building maybe the tallest building in Malaysia, PNB118 and the youngest is doing her ACCA. Perempuan sesat semua orang dah besar suddenly dia lahir. 😂 We talked and chatted like we were still a kid. Especially when the husband is not around. My sister's husband now overseas to oversee construction project dengan Japan company. So of coz la dia pun single macam I haha.. My father cakap, tengoklah diorang ni even dah besar tapi cakap macam masa diorang budak2 dulu. Yeah.. miss that moment sebenarnya. Buat lawak bodoh, but now we are paying for the trip. Just bagitahu where u want to go, what u want to eat, we'll settle everything. Macam mana my parents settle everything for us masa kitorang kecik2 dulu. 

Hey Ipoh

Drooling

My all time fav Ah Cheng laksa

The best roti jala by Chef Nizam

Mee rebus Kuala Kangsar from cooked by my fren, Seri

Some random pictures of what I ate past few weeks haha. Anak I pun dah tahu perangai mak dia jangan makan lagi. Lemme feed the phone first! Lol! Sometimes when I tak amek gambar they'll ask me why I didn't take picture? Boleh makan dah ke ni? Hahahhahah... Sorry kids!!

This time around takde adegan baling barang, gaduh2 maki2.. Am I healed? Hahah.. We never know. But I tahu even how bad the situation is, I am loving him forever. He's back now, tapi hati manusia ni berbolak balik, Allah yang pegang. I'll be devastated but I know I will move on easily if it will ever happen again. For now, I just want to enjoy the moment, had him cuddle me when he's around, buying things that I want, bring me to road trip, kiss me randomly at night when I sleep. Cry when I cried. Trying so hard to jaga my hati. Always tarik kepala I to sleep at his ketiak omg! Hug me tight, make sure I'm covered dengan selimut. 

I don't know but I feel if I mengungkit lagi, macam I break his heart. I fikir banyak kali sebelum reply whatsapp or cakap. Sometimes I dah type, then I delete and type benda yang takkan trigger marah dia. Bila I dah type tu I lega coz I dah buat even tak send kat dia faham tak. Bila nak cakap pun I akan mengungkit dalam hati but then istighfar jap and cakap benda baik2 je la untuk dia dengar dengan telinga tu. At least ada improvement. Dulu I memang hembus je apa dalam hati I and the consequences memang real bad lah kan. Now let say if I teringat, I akan nangis je. I won't say anything. Esok dia fly, malam ni I akan masak untuk lunch dia. And I akan buat cookies favourite dia choc chip sea salt cookies. Actually favourite I, but tu macam signature cookies I la untuk dia haha.. Then final nights tu normally we will cuddle and check each other nangis ke tak. Lol. Lama dah tak rasa berat hati nak lepaskan. I don't know, hikmah after what happen ni, relationship kitorang makin berkualiti. Makin matang mungkin. Alhamdulillah.. Tapi hope dia tak lupa, even I sayang pun I can walk away anytime and forget everything if benda jadi lagi. Parents I tak ajar pula kalau kena pijak just stay.

Tapi like I said previously, I just want to enjoy the moment. I love my husband, love my family, my kids, my friends. I love them all. Insyaallah amin.

You gotta love yourself woman!

Hi Dear,

I just completed my vaccination yesterday. 2nd dose at PWTC was so smooth. Sekejap sangat dah settle. This time, I memang tengok when the PIC doing the jab, just to make sure that they do it properly coz banyak dah complaint vaksin angin la, tak suntik etc. Im soo not gonna waste my time on having to face semua tu. Nope, didn't take any pics sebab nak avoid risk of contagious infection if I let others hold my phone or vice versa. Digital cert tu cukup dah bukti dah complete dose kan.

Musim durian dekat pilah just started around past 2-3 weeks. Ade lah jual dekat my friend sikit, etc. I tak excited sangat musim durian ni, entahlah. Maybe sebab dari kecik my family pun ada dusun durian. Always spend time sana when there's durian season. Then after married, my husband bought an orchard also.. which more or less the same je lah. And one more sebab durian ni buat I benci. Biasalah perempuan menggedik andartu blaja kolej private jadi doktor kontrak pastu demand nak permanent post pulak akan hint suka durian la etc. Like I care. Semua benda rasa entitle. Kamonla.

I just came across a quote tau.. 'heartbreak doesn't last long, same goes to love'. U know what I mean? Over time, it heals.. tapi u won't forget that u are hurt, cuma somehow hati u dapat terima, and u akan tahu sebenarnya pemilik hati tu cuma satu, Allah. Sedih bila tahu orang yang kita sayang, percaya tu.. hati dia dekat orang lain. If it was easy to just walk away, I would. Tapi banyak sangat hati yang akan terluka. Especially my parents and my kids. So, I know I can to this too. Memaafkan dan move on, melupakan tidak. 

It would be easy if he just let me go macam tu.. dari pujuk I with his every effort. Made me feel macam sometimes I love him, bila ingat balik I jadi benci. Mengamuk2 untuk dia lepaskan je I (ni memang I wajar kena kecam) but then he said that until I found someone yang boleh jaga I better that dia jaga I, he won't lepaskan I. One day if I found the one, then dia akan buat apa yang I nak. Ok bai.

This morning, I feel like boosting my immune system lepas ambil vaksin. Scared last time masa first dose teruk sangat effect dia for a day. Demam, sakit badan etc but this time I takde rasa apa apa pun. So far so good. Cuma husband ada demam dan sakit badan. But taknak mengaku lol.

Guna juicer jelah mix orange + tomato + herbalife collagen + aloe. Biasalah rasa collagen ni tak sedap rasa nak muntah tapi when mix with fresh orange okay jela tutup mata minum. In my early 30s now, so kena la love myself more. Orang lain hati boleh berubah kan.. Dia lupa kot hati I ni pun boleh je berubah.

My breakfast drink. Oh lupa, ada add a tsp of kelulut honey. One of superfood yang I suka. Confirm natural sebab my sis in law bela belakang rumah dia je 😅

Hello breakfast!

Okaylah hopefully boleh cantik lepas ni wakakakakaa...

Just Maybe

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Coba tanyakan lagi pada hatimu

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Menunda perpisahan

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Percakapan kita

Pertanyaan kamu sedang apa?

Terkesan hanya sebuah formalitas saja

Coba tanyakan lagi pada hatimu

Apakah sebaiknya kita putus atau terus

Kita sedang mempertahankan hubungan

Atau hanya sekedar

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Lately banyak cerita sedih among my friends. The husband of my office mate passed away due to covid 19. My ex colleage, the husband now in ICU intubated due to covid stage 5. Al fatihah to both of them. Harapnya korang kuat hadapi ujian dunia ni. Meanwhile.. ujian aku pun berbeza. I'm fighting everyday untuk kembalikan hubungan macam sedia kala. Allah masih bagi aku peluang. Tapi mungkin terlalu lama MCO aku ke yang mental? Atau instinct aku yang fail?

Aku manusia.. Aku pun tau letih. Too tired to fight. Tak tau apa yang aku fight. Until today.. I'm not fighting anymore. Just a total silent. It's okay. Sometimes aku tau, 'pandangan' dia tu menyatakan that I'm not that good, that judgemental look at me when there were days yang I tak really productive, maybe. I never judge u when u are on your unproductive mode. Laying in bed, phone 24 hrs.

Just. Whatever. I had enough. I don't know if I'm living a lie or it's just me yang tak nak percaya.

I had enough of 'owh harini letih sangat, balik kebun', 'penatnya kayuh basikal. tak larat.', .. For me, it just meant one thing, u just had enough of me. Just say it to my face. Instead of just lying everytime. To me, and to yourself.

Maybe I should recite Al-Fatihah to myself.

Sometimes I wish I would be gone but life is not as simple as that. Orang dah tak nak, buat apa nak stay. 

I did visualize myself, working somewhere in the country that is dear to me someday, leaving everything behind. Sometimes, I would visualize other things, macam one fine day bila dah tua we will spend our days with the cucus.. pegi kebun etc. But the latter seems better. 

Maybe I should just brace it and let go. Afterall, a happy marriage is a union of two good forgivers.

Maybe I should just let it slide and move on.

Just maybe.

Berpantang cara aku

Berpantang kali kedua ni aku rasa lebih relaks berbanding kali pertama dulu. Cuma di hospital aku kena sakit perut macam contraction setiap kali aku susukan baby aku. Memang nyeri jugak la rasa masa rahim nak mula mengecut tu sebab kali ni aku tak rasa sakit langsung masa bersalin. So, sakit sikit pun aku rasa macam sakit lah ceritanya..

Kali ni tak ada episiotomi pun. Baby lahir 3.53kg ada jugak luka sikit bawah tu and jahit sikit. 2nd degree tear. Tapi tak sakit pun bila berjalan.. Hari ke 6 nurse check kat rumah dia cakap macam takde jahitan pn.

Kalau dulu aku alami sembelit teruk masa bersalin anak pertama, kali ni aku dah sedia enema in case aku takde urge nak pergi toilet lebih 3 hari. So, 3rd day aku dah boleh membuang macam biasa dengan bantuan enema. Walaupun aku ada phhytonatal dalam set bersalin NR tu masa awal2 ni aku tak makan lagi lah sebab nak make sure anak aku betol2 bebas jaundice. Kalau dah masuk tiga hari masih takde urge aku akan makan lactulose yang kpj bagi. So far so good. Memang sebenarnya aku nak kurangkan kebergantungan pakai enema tu sebab mesti ada side efffect kan kalau setiap kali nak membuang asyik pakai enema. Lepas 2 minggu baru aku start makan phytonatal setiap kali lepas makan malam 2 bijik. Esok pagi sure akan membuang secara natural. Every day without fail. Badan aku pun rasa ringan jer hahaha..

Bab pemakanan pulak aku memang ambik yang berzat lah sebab aku tak reti makan ikan masin. Tak pernah cuba nak makan pun. So mak aku akan masakkan sup ikan merah, masak ikan tenggiri dan seumpamanya. Awal2 aku makan ikan jer.. Limau sunkist makan hari2 sekurang2nya sebijik so that luka cepat baik. Jus sunquick oren aku minum hari-hari letak dalam botol and minum bila dahaga. Air suam memang sentiasa ada sebab breastfeed baby memang selalu dahaga. Kadang-kadang sekali minum dah habis setengah botol.

Berurut start hari ke 10 selama 3 hari. Memang syok lah bila dah lepas berurut. Aku rasa kali ni aku aktif sikit lah masa berpantang. Alhamdulillah anak aku pun tak ada jaundice. Masa cek first time 8.2 lepas tu makin turun 7.8 so tak perlu warded. Cuma continue breastfeed. Aku memang suka lah breastfeed ni sebab berat aku turun dengan jayanya hahahah in fact lagi ringan berbanding sebelum pregnant dulu.

Aku boleh jer mandikan baby aku sendiri etc. Kalau dulu aku bersalin bila nak siapkan baby atas katil aku rasa sakit pinggang tapi kali ni takde pulak. Walaupun orang kata effect pakai epidural akan sakit pinggang. Tapi aku terbalik pulak. Masa tak pakai yang sakit pinggang masa berpantang.

Anak nombor 2 ni pun tak banyak meragam. Senyap je cuma menagis bila nak susu or perut kembung. Bila aku exercise kaki dia, keluar la angin tu lepas tu tidur balik. Very easy baby menyebabkan aku banyakkk sangat masa and aku rasa lamaanya pantang ni. Still berbaki sebulan lagi cuti tapi aku dah boring teramat dah ni. Takkan hari-hari mengadap tv, playstation, internet semua aku dah boring. Rasa macam nak masuk kerja jerrr tapi sapa nak jaga anak aku pulak wakakaka..

Dats it. Walaupun quite senang this time, I'm soooo gonna go to LPPKN untuk perancang  after this.

How does it feels......

I can't wait for my husband to reach KL this week..! It had been almost five days ok. FIVE days he work at the platform. I can't even whatsapp him. Luckily they have fixed line there and 4 to 5 times a day he would call me but still.. I miss seeing him. Hehe.. This morning he flew by chopper just like the usual and I would go like.. Don't you feel gayat? If it were me, I would rather take the boat to make it to the land.

So, this Friday, I would go fetch him at the airport as usual :)

Where would we go this long weekend ya? Any idea? I'm thinking of Langkawi but ya.. surely it will be quite pack especially on long weekends like this. So we both decided to take extra leave on Tuesday hence the need for some vacation. My bawse went to Amsterdam and Greece for three weeks that's heaven yea right!! So where should we spend our weekend? Cherating, no? PD? When I go Redang, I swear I would never swim in PD ever again. Air PD warna coklat imagine! Dhla accomodation quite pricey. Melaka I just went there last week. Cameron, many times already, Genting with little toddler is a no-no, Penang is my hometown so no lah, maybe we should hibernate in the house instead. Haha.. Brrr.....

Selamat pulang my LOVE.

Kurang tiga tahun

Tak terlambat lagi rasanya nak ucapkan selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin kepada kamu yang tak sengaja ter come across (whats the word?sorry) blog ngeng ini tanpa sengaja melalui Google or whatsoever la.. Kosong2 kita ya..

It's already been August 2014 but still.... Banyak lagi agenda yang belum dicapai. Aku andaikan tahun ni sebagai tahun mengubah diri dan sikap supaya menjadi wanita yang lebih matang. 2014 tak ada satu pun resolusi yang aku list down
...

Masa spring cleaning terjumpa diary aku yang aku hadiahkan kat boyfriend merangkap husband aku sekarang. Yikes! Baca balik apa yang aku tulis, I can conclude that I was so naive back then. Mimpi yang indah2 saja. Hahaha...

We were only 20 years old hehe... Buku penuh angan2. Nak ada anak 3 org lepastu cross sorang sebab rasa banyak. Tak sangka aku pernah macam ni. Seriously nak buang tapi husband tak bagi. Modal gelakkan aku la tu..

My ideal family back then is duduk dirumah yang ada halaman luas, ada 2 kereta one for him, one for moiii, weekends visit parents, and petang weekend minum tea together. Fairytale sangattt...

So now, after 7 years... We were totally different person, however the love is still strong as ever. Ya allah i love him. Tapi resolution aku untuk 2015 takkanla kebudakan macam 7 tahun lepas kan.. Harus realistik sikitlah.

Mission jangka pendek aku which is less than 3 years, but the efforts ke arah itu must be done now now now!

Before i reach the age of 30 by 2017, what i want is to be a better person in every ways, complete my professional cert that will commenced starting next year, try to conceive for second baby, and be healthy.

My long terms goal would be...
Performing hajj with my husband and my daughter before i reach 38, start my own firm before i reach 35, have savings of 12x times household monthly income, keeping our marriage solid and strong ever after.

Hopefully when I reach 35 I won't laugh at myself like what I did now to me the in my 20s. Erghh...!!!
(satu kerja nak bawak diary ni everywhere sbb taknak orang baca!)

Of Renaissance hotel KL

It can be said this month of April quite a bliss month at least for me sebab... tax refund from the IRB dah dapat yey and get to kepit my husband like a leech sebab he got meeting in KL two weeks in a row!!

Stayed at level 24, we got the room with tower view.

Macam biasa, setiap kali masuk hotel wajib nak tengok toilet. Toiletries dia paling best. Banyak kott.. hehe..

Macam hotel lain jugak.. sama je interior cuma win kat toiletries je ;)

That's my couch potato boss with her popcorn on our bed. -_-

Overall ok. The room is not that spacious as compared to other 5 stars hotel. It can be said that the staffs are well trained and friendly. There's a BUT.... however I think every hotels have their own policies to maintain their standard. My baby is not allowed to enter the cocktail sheeshhhhhhhhh and thats the only complaint I have.

Families with small kids are advisable to dine at the dining area downstairs at the ground level.

At least I got some off days before giving a full swing on my day job next week. Haih.. another tax audit for my client in the week to come. Why la...

Gross profit rise, gross profit drop also giving us headache because the client might be prone to kena tax audit. Obviously it cant be stagnant every year, so just let them do it and embraceeee hahahaha.. bye

Tips bila berjauhan dengan suami

Dah 2 tahun aku belajar hidup berjauhan dengan suami. Aku ingat lagi, pertama kali dia kena report duty ke seberang laut, aku terkelu jap. Husband pun pening nak accept job offer atau reject je. Dhla baru kahwin, tengah pregnant, now kene duduk asing?? Sobs. Sebenarnya bukan aku sorang macam ni. Ramai. Zaman sekarang ni jarangla nak jumpa husband and wife duduk sekali. Bukan semua orang nasib baik. Bestfren aku kahwin dengan orang kapal.. memang berbulan jugak kena tinggal. Apa pun aku patut bersyukur aku tak pernah kena tinggal lebih 2 minggu hehe..

First time skype dua2 nanges haha kelakar bila ingat balik. Sekarang masing2 dah tough. Cuma fikir masa muda kerja kuat2 boleh relax awal. No point aku ikut dia, bukan boleh bawak naik pelantar pun. Sama je kena tinggal jugak. At least kat sini aku ada saudara, family boleh tengok kalau sakit ke apa. Husband pun selalu sangat balik. Kadang2 meeting kat kl balik jugak. Aku rasa masa yang kitorang spend lagi berkualiti berbanding masa dia kerja kl dulu.

So, bila husband takde, apa yang aku buat?

1. Kemas rumah. 5 hari kerja mana ade masa nak sental toilet bagai. So, precious weekend buatla apa yang patut.

2. Shoping. Sebab ada baby agak leceh nak shopping. Tapi aku selalu ada adik atau kawan keluar sekali so senang. Tak boleh imagine nak tolak stroller and trolley at the same time sorang2!

3. Buat apa aku suka. Contoh : menjahit apa2 jela

4. Hantar baby kat babysitter jap, g spa pamper yourself.

5. Selalu berhubung dengan suami kalau dia ada coverage

Tengok2 dah habis weekend.. takde masa nak rasa bosan. Tambah2 anak dah aktif memang takde masa la nak meratib bagai. Baik layan baby je.. then next weekend husband pn balik.. masa ni la nak mengada ke apa lantakla.

Yang tak bestnye bila duduk jauh ni bila anak sakit ke, aku sakit ke.. sedih ok. Seboleh2nya aku nak elak anak aku warded sbb dah pernah rasa susahnye.. nak kerja, nak g toilet kat ward pun susah sebab baby takkan nak tinggal. Nak tak nak kena ada orang lain sekali dengan kita. Tapi alhamdulillah sejak dah jangkau setahun ni  anak dah jarang sakit.

Hubungan jarak jauh macam ni memang menuntut kepercayaan tahap tinggi dan isteri pulak memang kena independent. Kena yakin tujuan suami pergi nak cari nafkah untuk family. Bagi aku, selagi husband aku beria nak balik rumah je lepastu kalau balik tak boleh berenggang ok lagi la tu. Call pun hari2, tak dapat call emel je lepastu wajib bercakap dengan anak dia hari2, nafkah tak pernah miss, aku rasa takde masalah besar nak letak sepenuh kepercayaan kat pasangan.  So bak kata adik aku, " love is blind, but marriage is an eye opener".. true indeed.

Cant wait for tomorrow.. my normal routine every friday after work I have to head straight to the airport to pick up my boyfriend. Haha nitez!

Good night Kuala Lumpur

It was a night well spent in KL. The last time I checked in at KL hotel was a week before my due for delivery which is at Corus Hotel. I remember it took 30 minutes to make u turn to the hotel which is located at nearby, opposite direction. Traffic was so congested it drove me crazy especially during peak hour.

This time, we checked in at Gtower hotel. Honestly I never heard of it but because the next day meeting is scheduled at Menara Binjai, which is just a walk away from the hotel, so we give it a try.

It was a very pleasant stay. I love the interior and everything, only one thing they do not allow guest with kids to the dining area. Other than that, 99.9% okay..

How time flies, and I think there were times I nearly lose myself. I used to be very ambitious last time, full of confidence, I believe I could achieve everything but now I'm not that kind of person anymore. I miss the feeling to be so determine and bold but I'm only human.... time has taught me a lot, my peers has taught me a lot... really, I learn about life through times.  Time made me change 180 degree.

Looking out through the windows, half of me says maybe I should bring a little bit of my old self now and kickstart mylife, but another half says I should just go with the flow... let life suprise me with unexpected things that it has to offer.

I'm enjoying my 'me' time in dreamland until my husband call me to uhm... sleep.

View of the night

I plan to design our house like this once we manage to stay together again for good. Right now I'm happy to announce that we got tenants already.. yey! An expatriate from Philipines... I'm ok with that as long as the family will take care of the house in a proper manner.


A little sneak peek of Gtower hotel interior....

Nitey loves!

Kundasang with love

Cantiknya Sabah, subhanallah. Kali ni cuma pergi berdua. Baby tinggal tokmama hehe.. Sampai dalam pukul 3.00 petang so target nak sampai Kundasang dalam pukul 6.00 ++ lepas setel kereta sewa etc. Satu tips sila download apps Waze memang senang je nak pergi mana-mana attraction point. Jalan dari KK ke Kundasang memang takde lampu jalan and note that Sabah gelap awal. Masa tu jarak pandangan memang terhad sebab dah gelap dan berkabus. Sampai Celyn Resort Kinabalu dalam pukul 6.30pm tapi macam dah pukul 9 gelapnya.. -_- Resort ni pun cari guna Waze kalau tak memang takkan jumpa ler.. Jauh ke dalam dan jalan nak ke resort cuma halfway bertar. Mampusla kete Viva Elite tu haha tapi memang boleh 'pergi' orang kata. Saing-saing triton kalau ikot belakang.. Tu pon leh saing kalau ada lori lambat macam siput haha

Malam pertama kami just check in lepastu segarkan badan sembahyang etc dan turun semula nak pergi cari makan. Ada je room service tapi saja nak cari ubat gigi sambil jalan pekan kundasang. Ingatkan semua hotel ada sediakan ubat gigi unfortunately not this one. Ok la small matter je pon. Kitorang makan KFC je sini lepastu balik resort. Ada je kedai runcit, jangan risau. Tapi pam minyak kat sini tutup pukul 6 pm.

Esoknya pukul 5 pg dah bangun semangat nak tengok gunung tapi sebab hujan memang berkabus dan tak nampak langsung. Lepas breakfast terus pergi poring dekat Ranau. Kat poring banyak benda boleh buat. Ada hotspring, canopy walk, etc. Kalau decide nak mandi bawakla baju tapi aku malas sebab banyak lagi tempat nak pergi.

Canopy walk tu gayat ok.. Kalau tengok bawah memang bikin pening.

Check point canopy walk. Cantik sangat kehijauan hutan dalam ni. Kalau panjat Gunung Kinabalu mesti lagi cantik pokok2 kat sana. Frust si gunung sombong amat. Totally tak nampak huhu... masa ni pun denai licin. Kena jalan hati-hati la. Aku pulak pandai giler pakai flats memang lenjan abes flat aku masuk hutan macam ni, Such a noob haha.. Pakaila kasut sesuai ok next time.

Lepas tu pergi Sabah tea. Jalan shortcut lagi sebab pakai waze. Kat sini  takde apa pun tapi kalau nak tengok ladang teh ok la kot. Ada satu cafe kat sini sape nak makan. Aku datang sini pun sebab dia bersebelahan dengan Kampung Luanti je tempat attraction yang banyak ikan. Sekejap je kat sini cuma beli 3 kotak teh sabah RM11 saje je padahal kat Jusco pun ada tak silap hehe..

Ikan kat sini jinak-jinak macam kat Kenyir. Nak masuk pun ada nombor giliran sebab tak boleh ramai2 sangat. Makanan boleh beli sepaket RM0.20..takde makanan pun ikan2 tu akan datang jugak. Pelahap betol.

Then terus pergi Kinabalu Park. Kat sini guna tiket sama je dengan tiket Poring. Mesilau pun guna tiket sama. Jimat2.. :)

Kinabalu park boleh masuk kereta. Memang tak larat la nak jalan kaki dalam tu. Cantik sangat dan banyak tupai jinak. Kat sini kalau nak jalan kaki boleh je tapi masakkk laa haha..

Isi minyak dulu.. Comel je pam minyak die.

Lepastu makan kat restoren kat pekan kundasang. Okeyla restoren ni ramai je orang. Yang penting kepak ayam die sedap giler.

Ngam2 je nak pergi Desa Cattle tengok lembu. Time perah susu pukul 3 petang tiap2 hari. Sebelum ke Desa Cattle ada je lagi satu tempat attraction iaitu War Memorial tapi malas pulak nak pegi.

Argh busuknye.. Haha.. Takder lah New Zealand sangat tapi okeyla.. Tengok lembu beratur perah susu pun RM4. Kelas kau lembu! Sampai jem entrance nak tengok lembu punya pasal. Nasib aku dah sampai awal. Seriusly bukan sebab lembu ni pandai sangat beratur nak kena perah susu. Aku rasa sebab time tu pun diorang bagi lembu2 ni makan and lorong nak masuk tu cukup2 je badan sekor lembu so nampak ler macam beratur. Exaggerate sangat ok. Aku beli 2 kotak susu coklat tapi sori bau lembu tak sanggup nak telan dah. Husband aku pun sama. Pergi tempat anak lembu dan kambing boleh bagi diorang makan tapi hmmmhhhh bau erghhh... Susu lagi skotak pun end up bagi jer kat orang. Dua2 tak boleh telan. Rasanya tempat ni kalau budak2 pergi ok la. Honeymoon spoil mood je bau lembu hehe..

Ini kat Mesilau Park. Ok la cantik macam kat Kinabalu Park. Pencinta nature macam aku memang suka sangat laa...

Balik Mesilau kitorang lepak kat Pine. Kengkonon nak tengok Kinabalu but tak dapat la sebab orang kata kalau nak tengok seluruh gunung kena bangun pagi2.. -_-

Pine seriously cantik. Next time nak duduk sini hehe..

Depan bilik kat Celyn

Goodmorning cinta! Rise and shine. Masa ni around 5.30am

Slope naik Celyn, but in the end all worth it

Gunung yang tak malu lagi hari ni.. Our last day, terima kasih sebab tunjuk muka. 

Bye sayang see u again

Head to Kota Kinabalu first thing in the morning after breakfast. Flight balik pukul 6 so pergi Pekan Nabalu dulu. Keychain beli sini memang murah gila la.. Betol orang cakap. (Ni kalau nak compare dengan KK). Benda sama je sebenarnya.. Lepastu pergi Pasar Filipin ergh rasa panas gila sebab sebelum ni dok layan sejukk je kat Kundasang tu hehhe.. Malas nak shoping dalam tu. Aku cuma beli rumpai laut dan amplang je sebab benda lain tak minat.

Straight je pergi Jamilah Jewellery beli pearl. Takla minat sangat pearl, cuma beli untuk orang lain je lebih. 

Pantai Tanjung Aru

Pergi buang masa kat Tanjung Aru jap tengok makcik2 menari poco2 dengan lagu anak kampung yang femes tu. Rajin sungguh.. Aku ada plan lain sebenarnya.. Nak makan lokan kat Sepanggar tapi semua spoil sebab ada orang nak jumpa. Last sekali makan pataya je kat kedai -_- 

End the day melayan cerita the time traveller's wife dalam flight balik KL. Best! Definitely will come again to Sabah untuk trip pulau pulak.Insyaallah one fine day.