Pregnant Again on our 13th Years of Marriage

Happy new year 2025! How time flies. I don't even remember what I did in 2024. 

17th Nov 2024. The day I found out that I'm pregnant with our third baby. I am at 37 years old, both kids are now independent, doing their own stuff and suddenly.... 2025 will be the year that I will have to roam back to milk and diapers aisle. 

11th weeks now, and I feel like shit. I don't have the energy to do anything. I just try to live everyday. I don't have any appetite for foods, but I know I have to eat for my growing baby. At the same time I still have to go to work. Luckily my morning sickness only happen after maghrib. I would throw up like nobody's business.

Bloated 24/7 is normal now. Salute to mommies who gets pregnant every year to go through all these. I can eat fruits, but I hate it now. I hate filtered water be it at home/ office. I just hate to drink because it taste weird. I hate chicken but I don't have options. I hate seafood and meat, basically I hate everything but I force myself to eat something at least.

I felt sleepy and hungry all the time. I will eat mixed nuts all just because I have to stop my growling stomach. As for my husband, normally we would go for date nights, after the kids were asleep. Now, no more since I don't even have the mood to do anything. Really felt bad for him. Please tell me this will be over soon.

I realized lately anything that I thought, somehow will be materialized. I'm not sure how and why though. I want my mom fried beehoon so badly. My mom lived 4-5 hours away from me hence I know I won't be getting it sooner. I never tell anyone about this craving, and obviously my mom don't have any idea about it. My mom came to my house and guess what? She brought her fried beehoon! I cried thinking that Allah has been so generous to me.

I don't know what happen with this beehoon cravings. One day, my husband brought us to a Thai restaurant. I didn't tell him what I want to eat because I don't have the mood for anything. Deep down I felt like eating fried beehoon that night. Quite disappointed that they do not have it in their menus. Its ok, I ordered Phad That instead. Guess what? The waiter came to me to tell me that the Phad Thai is out of stock, so I had to order something else. I casually tell him that I want to have fried beehoon. Yes! Of course I got my fried beehoon. I'm shooked!

Last 2 weeks I thought, would be good if we can travel to Bali. I didn't plan or say anything to my husband about this, coz it is just a thought. I didn't feel like myself pun to travel due to my pregnancy. One evening after work, my husband ask me to choose any place to go and ask me to plan a short trip at least to go getaway for a few days. He handed me his card and voila! Off we go to Bali the very next day. When this happened, somehow I felt scary. Why Allah has granted my wishes so easily. I would still cry in the car every morning, even when I listened to Zikr. Maybe its the pregnancy hormone right? Even the simplest thing, for instance if I saw a rainbow in the sky while driving, I felt like its a gift from Allah to me and he sees me even though Im just a human, and that made me cry.

Today it happened again, Remember I told that I hate to drink the filtered water? We have someone came over to service our water filter this morning and she accidentally broke the pipe hence we can't use the dispenser until the maintenance guy came later in the evening. My husband was worried that we don't have water to drink in between. He bougth loads and loads of Spritzer water and yeah. Actually, that is the only kind of water that I would drink right now during this first trimester. I think, the stock he bought might last until months. Actually, every morning before work, I would drop by the gas station to buy Spritzer as my drinking water throughout the day and now of course I don't need to already. I am really grateful somehow, even when I didn't say to anyone what I need/ wants, Allah always knew it and he will make it happen. There's always a way.

I don't intend to blurt out everything, some of it I will keep to myself. I jot this so that I will always remember. I can't wait for this baby to arrive. This is a big Rezq that Allah has granted us. Actually it is the doa of  the brother and sister that was being granted by Allah. Alhamdulillah. I don't know how will I manage this, but I know, I can and I will do it somehow. It has been 10 years since I last giving birth, of course I forget things. My husband treat me like I am the first time mom haha.. But pity them coz I dont have the  mood for anything right now, i.e to lepak, to do chores, to cook etc. This too, shall pass insyaallah.

10.43pm, bedroom SR.

Bye wisdom tooth

Hi,

Just came back from the clinic.. since I got plenty of time right now, hence this blogpost.

Dah lama actually nak cabut. Especially bila time sakit datang menggila sampai ke urat kepala. Even before I sat for my ACCA exam around June. Aku takdelah takut nak jumpa dentist sbb dengan Dr Chong ni dari kecik memang dah biasa jumpa dia. Even aku dah tak duduk Puchong pun sampai sekarang apa-apa berkaitan gigi aku akan cari dia. Cuma time tu takde untuk pergi cabut gigi. Busy dengan workload, dengan study, dengan anak-anak, weekend ikut mertua g kenduri.. Kalau husband balik, kitorang akan g short getaway. So bila masanya aku nak fikir pasal gigi ni..

Sampaila a week before exam, sakitnya ya ampun. Memang kacau mood aku nak study lah. Dahla masa limited, sakit gigi lak. Rasa macam nak mengamuk. So aku nekad, after exam, aku akan cabut jugak gigi ni by hook or by crook.

Here I am now, being prep for my turn for the minor operation. Aku baca blog ye, pasal pengalaman orang lain. Wow, exaggerate sangat aku rasa sampai aku takut kot.. Duh.. Tambahan pulak menantu TPM passed away masa kena bius dekat dental clinic yang dia pergi. Sapa tak cuak wei..

Dr Chong ni jenis tak banyak cakap, Dah tahu style dia. Aku pun malas nak tanya banyak2. Yang aku tau aku memang kena cabut jugak gigi ni hari ni. So, dia buat xtray, sah lah aku tak boleh cabut biasa. Kena go through minor operation jugak. Ok xpe, bring it on!

Aku dapat 3 jabs untuk bius, which aku tak rasa sakit pun. Then ak dah tak rasa pipi and lidah aku mcm stroke sebelah haha.. Aku memang tak pernah takut cabut gigi tapi kebelakangan ni banyak cerita tak best pasal cabut gigi, dalam hati ada sedikit gusar hehe..

Dia brief lah akan potong tulang sikit (horror ok!) kena potong gigi sikit ok ape2 jelah. I just want to get it done. Nervous aku lama kelamaan hilang as the procedure start. Macam biasa memang boleh dengar apa dia buat semua cuma tak sakit lah tu je..

Agak susah a bit dia nak cabut gigi aku. Few attempt jugak aku tengok dia buat. Finally keluar.. Dr pun examine gigi tu, ahlamdulillah akar keluar semua, So dia jahit and everything.. settle. Happy nya aku!!! Bye gigi bongsuku. !!

So untuk sebatang gigi kat klinik ni actually is RM700 tapi sebab aku dah biasa so diskaun lah RM100.. Total kena bayar RM600. Takpelah claim company hihik.. Sini takde mesin swipe2 yer, semua cash.

Alhamdulillah, pengalaman aku takde yang horror ke ape. Ok2 je macam cabut gigi biasa. Yang masih teragak2 nak cabut tu, just go for it ok! Jangan sampai melarat sangat-sangat baru g. Kalau wisdom tooth tu tumbuh ok, baguslah tak payah cabut. Kes cam aku ni, sukati dia je tumbuh melintang so nak buat macam mana. Nama pun bongsu, perangai sukati macam anak bongsu jugak... Tetonggeng2 dia tumbuh hadoi..

Ok lah bye!

Boba Tweet 4G

Hello beautiful!

I got my Boba Tweet 4G a day before I had to fly urgently to somewhere and tag along my baby. Even though I already had my boba wrap, I don't know why I'm getting nervous because I know I don't have that much time to tie the wrap to my body. (besides hygienic reason as part of the wrap will lay on the floor coz it's sooo long ;p)

So.. there goes my RM500 for this thing. Okey la since it made my life easier. I seldom want to carry my baby because I prefer them to sit on their stroller. Hehe.. But then, I use this thing when I really really really have to carry my baby if he gets cranky. It serve me well until now.

Right now I got 3 baby carriers and 3 strollers at home. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. Hahahaha... For newborn, I really recommend boba wrap la.. But for much older toddler, this kind of carrier will do justice on your body. I never use the free baby carrier when I purchase my medela swing maxi. I only use my boba wrap until my baby turns 3 month or 4 months old and now I stick with boba 4G. Thats the on story how I ended with 3 baby carriers.

Now, where do I put all those things????????!!!